“What I say doesn’t matter. My actions don’t make a difference.”
Or at least, this is what I tell myself. Do you ever have these moments of self-doubt when it comes to pursuing your calling in life?
I’ll let you in on a little secret… these are the feelings I’m having right now. As I prepare to speak for the first time at a conference later this month and make plans for future projects, I can’t help but wonder at times, “Is it really worth it? Is it really worth all the time and energy I put into these dreams? Are my words even making an impact?”
If I told you the thought of quitting never crossed my mind, I’d be lying. There have been plenty of days when I’ve said, “God, building Your Kingdom is going to require too much work… I’m tired… I don’t want to do this anymore… I’m done serving…”
But in these moments when I am just about to turn my back and walk away, I’m reminded of a conversation I had with God three years ago… “I’ll do anything. ANYTHING!” I said, “I just want my life’s work to make an eternal impact.”
And while I’m reminiscing over these words, another image is conjured up in my mind—Jesus. If anyone had a right to say, “God, building Your Kingdom is going to require too much work… I’m tired… I don’t want to do this anymore… I’m done serving…” it was Him. But no. He was obedient. Even unto death.
God never said it would be easy when we signed up to serve and wage war against the forces of evil. In fact, He said just the opposite. “In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)
God has since reminded me of the power our words carry—mine and yours. Our words have the power to bring life to a lost and dying world. If we don’t speak up or take action, who will?
I recently read a blog post by Jeff Goins called, “A Writer’s Biggest Struggle.” In his post, Jeff talks about this issue of self-doubt and shares a very profound quote by Edmund Burke. Burke says:
“All that is necessary for evil to triumph is for good men to do nothing.”
This quote reminds me of something a friend once said. “I’m okay with being mediocre.”
Read that again.
“I’m okay with being mediocre.”
That statement really stuck with me.
Are you okay with being mediocre? I most certainly am not.
Why? Well, mediocre doesn’t solve problems. Mediocre doesn’t change the world. Mediocre doesn’t impact lives.
Mediocre is not what you were created to be. You were made for more.
Selecting a life of purpose is a choice. But so is mediocrity.
Are you struggling with the sacrifices you must make to achieve your life of “more?” How do you combat feelings of doubt when it comes to fulfilling your purpose? Please leave your comments!